Sometimes these prompts hit a nerve and for me todays does just that.

For the last few years I have immersed myself in so many things to keep busy.

My life is incredibly busy but I want something for me instead of the family all the time.

I have so much to offer.

Volunteering, organising events, sightseeing tours. Lots and lots of running around but for very little money.

The events I love but like most things you need years and years of experience to be considered and I only have a couple.

My tours I love but are sporadic and freelance so not PAYE.

There have been a few opportunities and I’ve come close so many times to getting a contract but it’s always fallen at the final hurdle.

It’s incredibly demoralising to think that you are washed up at 48.

It’s rocks your self confidence to a point where it’s so hard to remain positive.

But I keep carrying on as I’m forever hopeful that my determination will pay off.

I hope the next 6 months my tenacity will pay off and someone somewhere will give me a job!

Thanks for reading