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There are obvious physical aspects that I think we would all change but the most important for me would be not to worry so much.

I have always been a worrier, I get that from my Mum.

It is such a huge part of who I am and controls so much of my life.

I worry about what people think of me. Am I too this, or too that?

Should I have done that better, faster more?

I say something then I analyze it after, have I offended them?

I send a text then I hear nothing, I worry.

Maybe I shouldn’t have been so direct, maybe they are pissed off.

I rarely answer a text immediately as i never know where my phone is so I do the same to others yet do they think the same.

I worry about Christmas, will everyone have a good time, get what they want, enjoy themselves?

For the past couple of years Ive been trying to re enter the corporate world after an extended career break.

There have been many situations when Ive had to be brave, “put on my big girl’s pants” and push myself.

Going to job fairs, walking up to strangers, introducing myself, job interviews and network events.

Instead of seeing myself as an asset Ive scrutinized every conversation and worried that perhaps Ive come across too brash, too pushy, maybe not pushy enough.

Why do I care?

Why cant I just not care and worry about what people think.

This is me.

My husband really does not care what anyone thinks.

He seriously could not give two shits.

He never has and despite coming across as arrogant and slightly aloof at times I envy it in someways.

Its liberating to be that confident or not confident but just not to give a fuck.

So if I could change anything I think worrying less would be top of my list.